Why am I doing this?

I have been thinking of writing a blog for a while. I'm not sure why I'm really doing it other than your have a place for my thoughts.  I am honestly horrible at keeping a diary, so we will see how long this lasts.

I'm currently 22 weeks and 5 days pregnant with my second. A little boy this time. My daughter is two years old.
It hasn't been smooth sailing this time round. Not necessarily the pregnancy itself, it's been fairly smooth sailing.  More like my life around me lately.

I lost my full time job of 7 years working in an art store in the fall. Actually on my daughters second birthday no less. (Thank you head office managers).  Since then it's been a bit if up and down looking for work. I did get lucky and got hired on seasonally at the new Costco in town that was opening in November.  Was chaotic for a while, but it made the time go by fast and the people were nice.  Only thing I didn't like was that I mostly had afternoon and evening shifts.  I didn't get to see my daughter or husband much. It was rough on her for a while too.

Unfortunately my seasonal contract came to an end.  Thougn I managed to get a part time job in retail again, but it's only 10 to 15 hours a week. Due to this I lost my subsidy assistance for daycare.  Daycare costs are nuts, and though subsidy's rules are a pain and sometimes don't make sense, it does help with lowering the cost.

I have been looking for other work, but it's hard,  especially when I'm nearly 5 months pregnant.  The minute you tell them, they go: oh...I was looking for somebody long term. But of course,  even though you can't even offer a minimum of 20 hours a week.  How is someone supposed to live off 10 to 15 hours a week on minimum wage? And every retail employer wsnts you tohave open availability for weekends.

It's definitely frustrating and honestly depressing.  I often wish it was May already.  I have been to one temp work agency, but they don't have much right now. I'll try another on Tuesday. 

I'm not sure what to do if I can't find more work within the next month or so.  I'm tempted to reduce my daughter to two days a week and change my availability for work at my current job. 

I want to keep my daughter in daycare part time once I go on maternity leave,  so I don't want to pull her completely. Daycare has been great with her. I don't think she'd be quite as advanced as she is now if she wasn't in daycare.  She talks mostly in full sentences,  can count up to 6, though often skips the order. She's a very bright girl.

Only 4 more months to go. I am really hoping I can find more work soon.  Wish me luck.